I don't know

I don't know why I have come here again.
Do I feel like I need to whine?
To complain about my life and all things in it?
Is it because I am, once again,
In my house?
With my family.
I am forever growing a hatred towards
My family.
I am forever growing a hatred towards
Myself.
I am forever growing a hatred towards
Everything.
Nothing.
I am becoming more and more melancholy.
I do not wish to feel.
Not like this.
Not any more.
I do not like so many things
In this world.
But I like you.
I don't want to be here.
I don't want to do this.
Why?
Please
Don't question me.
Let me be
Alone.

Eh.

I am quite sick at the moment. Which is rather annoying as I had barely gotten over my last sickness. This is also odd, as I don't normally get very ill very often.
Or maybe I do and I don't realise.

I am home today. Which is rather boring. I have quite a bit of housework to attend to, but I really really don't want to. I am so damn lazy.

I shall do the dishes and reward myself with popcorn. I think that shall be quite good.

I have been REWARDED!!

This is just a quick blog.
Just to let my Uzbekistani lover know that I am alive.
I thought you might like to know that I am rather happy. Which is odd, but good. There is a Russian movie on television. It is rather bad. But perhaps that is due to the cultural differences and general language barrier.
I want to be a model. I truly truly do. But I know it will never happen. So I mus live longing for what can never be.

My 'enter' button is working in strange ways.

I don't want to do anything. I am far too lazy. I can't be bothered. I want to just sleep forever and ever. It takes too much effort to wake up.

Perhaps I am not as happy as I think. But I doubt that.

I am no longer able to think of something to write.

Good day!