All that is wonderful

When i am too old to wear the clothes I wear, I will be a rockabilly chick. They are beautiful! So here we go, lots of photos of rockabilly chicks.

Concern

My friend messaged me today. He read my last blog. He'll probably read this one. His concern made me feel better about myself and everything. And for you, Daffy Duck (I don't think that's gonna last either), I ate more today. I ate lemon chicken with fried rice, three satay chicken kebabs and a tin of tiny taters. I still didn't snack though, sorry.

Damn it I am CRAVING Froot Loops!!


Jay was acting weird all day. He admits he was feeling odd. He didn't eat much, and he gets weird when he doesn't eat enough. He has been texting Mrs Slut Face, too. But he's honest about it. Today he was hiding his phone from me though. It's scary. I don't like being in Darwin. I don't like it because he ran away here to get away from me. He ran here to fuck up everything.

But I trust him. I am just paranoid.



My knee is fucked. I don't think I can jog anymore. Not for a while. I am going to have to find something else to do. I can't just sit around. I can't get fatter. God no.


No pictures of wonderfully thin girls. Just for you, Davino!

Hello hello

I just went through and cleaned up my facebook contacts. Not as much as I should have, really, but it's much better now than it was before. Only a stupid 191 friends instead of whatever the fuck it was before.

I haven't eaten yet! Go me! I have a new rule. I can't eat before 11.30 but I have to try and wait until it's 12 and then I am allowed something small. Then I can't eat again until dinner. It's pretty much what I was doing before, but now I have made it a rule so it's better =D

Decided I'd post some scenespo now. Sorry if there are any re-posts. Obviously they're just that good I needed to use them twice.

Ugh

I am so bored right now. Luckily I haven't eaten much today though!! Still, I have been eating really badly lately, and far too much. This girl I know didn't eat for so long she got faint and light headed. I have never been that bad. A guy I once knew passed out in drama class because he'd thrown up so many of his meals. I feel sorry for these people, but also strangely jealous. I don't want to be, but I am.

I looked up more skinny scene girls today, found some amazing photos! I can't be bothered posting them here though, it takes too long.




You know what sucks? When that fucking bitch talks to Jay. And you know what, he talks to her too. When he's bored and he thinks I will still be asleep. Not because he's hiding it, he told me straight out, but because he doesn't want to wake me up. It still shits me though.

Ugh

My jog today burned a total of...

Wait for it...


23 calories.

how fucking pathetic is that? I can't loose weight if I am only burning 23 fucking calories a day. Seriously, that's fucked up.

I am going to be so bored today. Which will suck because I'll probably eat too much.

I'm sure I'll be back here later

Neglect

I know, I haven't posted in a very very long time. Honestly, it's just because I am lazy. No one reads this anyway.

I have returned for a couple of reasons. One is because I missed this. Another is because I desperately want to document what I am doing. I want to document everything that is happening to me.

I just moved out of my parent's house with Jay. We moved up to Darwin. It's hot, humid and sticky. I like it though. I miss all my friends down south, but I am surviving here. I kinda wish I wasn't though.

I am trying to loose weight. I put on weight when I left school and am now a fatty. I am limiting my food intake and working out often. I have gotten into this "thinspiration" thing. I know it's a thing mostly associated with anorexia, but I can't possibly stop eating so you don't have to worry about that. What I would give to stop eating though! Then I would be thin, damn it. I found this one blog on Xanga that has really helped me want to be thinner. I will link to it later, It's seriously good! Some AMAZING photos!

For now, here is what I want to be.

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