Regrets

I wish I hadn't done that. Maybe then you wouldn't be so unsure. Maybe then you would want to do the things I want from us. I hate myself everyday. Sometimes I get mad and wonder why you can't forgive me like I did you, but I forget how long it took for me to be okay. It's o ly recently that the thought of it hasn't made me physically ill. I need to remind myself that what I did was worse, so you will need more time.
I guess I find it hard because I know I am being good so I don't always get why you don't see that I am trying really hard.
I want you to acknowledge how hard I try.