Content?

So I am sitting here not doing much at all.
And I am forced to wonder, is this contentedness?
Is this what it is like to be nothing overwhelming.
To have just a regular emotion with regular effects?
But I do not know.


Today I get my beanie. This is exciting because I really want it. Jay was very very kind and gave me the money for it. I am really glad I have him. I just wish i had money to give to him, too. Instead, i just do regular things for him. I figure it kinda helps even things out a little bit. I know that sounds weird, but I don't ever want to feel like I am just bumming around. I don't want him to think I am too dependent, either. Or that he is giving so much for nothing.

I must spend all night making Elen's present. It will be difficult, but I really want it to work out. I am sure she'll like it. At the very least she will pretend. I want to make it something she will remember and love. I mean, it's her eighteenth. She deserves the best!

I don't really know what to write. There's only about half an hour left of school, so I guess even if I did know what to write I wouldn't get much time to do it.

That is all.