I have sat here for fifteen minutes staring at the screen thinking "Is my life seriously so boring that I can't even think of something good to write on my blog that no one reads ond no one ever will?"

The answer: "Yes".

You know what I really hate at the moment? Damn near everything.I don't know why I am so pissed off at the world, but I am. Maybe it has something to do with all my friends hating my boyfriend even though he still makes me happy and I am totally over what happened. I don't care anymore, it doesn't involve you, why the fuck aren't you happy that I am happy? I mean, yeah you told me you love me, but everyone knew nothing would ever happen. Yes, he did the wrong thing, but he's working damn hard to fix it. So why the looks and the comments and the general bitchiness? What did he do to you? Nothing. Stop being selfish. There's standing up for me, and then there's making my life hard. It's fucking impossible to make everyone happy when you're all being unreasonable. That's you too, Jay. I know they're being bitchy but you're not making much of an effort here.

Fuck it. Why don't I just tell everyone this?


Yes, I did just spend another 15 minutes staring at the computer screen. I am such a sad sack.

And there goes another ten minutes of my time. What the hell is wrong with me? I have frees first thing in the morning so I get up EARLIER than usual and sit on the computer sighing the whole time. Fuck this right off.

I am so tired. i think I just fell asleep for a while there.



You know what I wish I could do? Write something meaningful and insightful on this piece of shit blog. Maybe the swearing prevents me from doing so. Fucked if I'll stop though.



So I am thinking of doing a documentary type thing for media this year. Like those freaking myspace show, but more awesome. I dunno though, it might be hard. Or boring. Probably both.I don't know what else to do, though. I have too many options and it's getting me confused.

Also, I have no fucking idea what I'm going to do for fashion this year, either. I want to do something spectacular, but I don't have good enough ideas. I would love to have something I can wear everyday. Maybe I won't be able to do that and I should just create an art piece or something.


Anyway, I have now wasted my entire free. Good job, Louie! Maybe someone will bother reading this one day.



By the way, HI Caitlin