Shit.

Why isn't anything getting better? I had my break downs. It should be fine. I should be fine! I can't stand being like this. I don't understand why I am. I jst can't relax. I can't be calm. I can't do anything because I am so damn crazy all the time.I just don't want to do this. I really don't.

If I could, I would run away. Then I wouldn't have to deal with any of this. I could be normal. Run to where no one knows who I am. Run as far as possible.
I hate that I can't.
Jay won't let me.

I am so fucking fucked. Why do I even bother anymore? Seriously. Fuck it. It's not fcking worth it. I'm done. Streak over. That's it. Back to what I used to be. What I used to do. FUCK IT!