Hmmm...

Well. I have a boyfriend now. His name is Ashley. I think it's kind of funny that he has a girl's name and I go by a boy's name. Not that I can tell him that, he doesn't like the whole "You've got a girl's name" thing.

Anyway. I was doing so very well, but the matches got the better of me. It was only small. It didn't really leave a mark or anything.


Yes... well...





































Yeah. I've got that feeling again.

Merry Fucking Christmas!

Right. So today was awesome. Far better than any other christmas ever before. List of presents? List of presents.

• Awesomely drawn picture of me from Ken.
• Eats, Shoots & Leaves.
• The complete works of Edgar Allan Poe.
• Some witchcraft book.
• Doctor Jeckyl and Mr. Hyde (plus other stories)
• Six or so Emily the Strange badges.
• A jewlery box.
• A rubber chicken
• Three pairs of socks (Black and white stripes, rainbow stripes and black with coloured skulls)
• A pair of boots (Combat boots. FUCK YES!)
• A black lace jacket thing (thanks Tiff!)
• Some colourful plastic jewlery from Jet.
• And probably some more stuff that I have forgotten...

Anyway. We got to Ken's pretty early. Fucked around with presents for hours. Watched Little Britan. So on and so on. 'twas good.

I'm not really in the mood for writing so yeah. Toodles.

It's been a while...

Well, I thought it was about time for a proper blog.

Since I last blogged I have:

• Fallen in love
• Fallen out of love
• Fallen in love again
• Acheived a goal
• Missed my shrink
• Felt crapper then crap
• Had a million and three fights with mum.
• and various other things...

Ken has moved in. It's awesome. He's not liking it as much. It's awfully boring for him, but he'll settle down eventually. I hope he does.

I applied for a job at the bakery, but I doubt I got it. I think Ashleigh (the stupid whore) did.

yes... well...

Tomorrow is Christmas. Incase you didn't know already. It shuold be alright this year. There are certainly a hell of a lot of presents. That's only expected from a family as big as ours though. We'll be spending Christmas with Ken and the gang. Should be heaps of fun.

I'd sell

my soul

my self esteem

a dollar at a time.

That's a good song. Magdalena - A Perfect Circle.

I'm taking her home with me

all dressed in white.

She's got everything I need

pharmacy keys.

She's falling hard for me

I can see it in her eyes.

She acts just like a nurse

with all the other guys.

Also a good song. Same band. The Nurse Who Loved Me.

I don't know what to tpe, really. I am tempted to send Ken the link to this blog. I don't know why, but I know I trust him... It would be a bit odd to have someone who I can see face to face read this. I might. I think I will...

Anyway. I guess I'm just rambling now. I really don't have much to say. Recently I've felt like utter crap, but I'll get over it.

Hmm... well... yes... you see... RUN!!!

Rant.

I am ever so pissed off at the moment. Apparently as you turn 20 you suddenly know everything about everything and can therefore generalise as much as you like.

I am sick of people telling me that I'm "too young to understand" or that "Things are different at my age". THINGS DON'T CHANGE LIKE THAT!
No matter how old you are, you will still look away when you lie.
No matter how old you are, you will still get hot in the summer.
No matter how old you are, you will still act like a know-it-all fuck.

Can't you see? People don't change as you get older. Mentally, it's all the same. Body language is the same for any human being of any age, race or religion. People don't suddenly change their ideas of how relationships should work when they turn 14. People don't decide that sex is all that matters from now until forever when they turn 18. If someone is going to change they do it over time.

Don't you tell me that I can't know this just because of my age. Don't you tell me I can't know this because of my gender. Don't tell me that I'm wrong without backing it up. Don't tell me that you know better than me just because of the few years you have on me.

Too many people are ignoring the opinions of fellow human beings purely because of their age, sex, race, religion, sexual preference, whatever.

So a big FUCK YOU to everyone who thinks the world is full of sex-crazed, money driven, violent, inconsiderate fucks. Yes, there are people like that out there. If you looked around for once you might see that not everyone is like that.


I'm not trying to be wise. I'm not trying to change the world. I'm not trying to do anything. I'm abusing my right for freedom of speech.

Do you want to know a secret?

Makala agrees that more people than usual seem to be trying to tick me off recently. I should tell someone, but what do I tell them? "These people are being cunts. I act like I don't care but it gets to me. Can you kick them up the ass for me?"

Please please please take away my anxiety.

I get the feeling I am going to right a fair few random lyrics in this entry. I always do when I write on papaer. Usually in fancy ways. I guess I'll have to make do in this.

Gone going gone. Gone people who give a damn...

I can't help but feel... nothing recently. I say I feel like crap, but that's only because there is no way to describe my feelings without sounding like a raving lunatic. It's just this weird feeling. Kind of like when your leg is numb enough not to feel pins and needles, but you can still move it a little. That horribly weird feeling.

Hmm... I'm bleeding. I don't know what I cut myself on. How odd...



































That's kind of the feeling I get all the time these days. How pleasant. I guess it's better than feeling like crap...






















No it's not.

Shrinky Mc Shrink Shrink

I wonder how Kim would feel if he knew I always reffer to him as my shrink. I don't think he'd like t much. I should stop.

Anyway, I went to see Kim today. 'Twas rather good. I didn't tell him about the cutting or anything. We talked about how I should set myself goals. Nothing big, just little silly things. You know, stuff I can actually do.

Today Chesh, Louis, Mitch and others decided to try and piss me off. It didn't actually work until they threw chips smothered in tomato sauce at me. They left soon after that.

I haven't really done much today. Worked on Liam's present a bit. I think it's finished now. I can't decide which version to give to him, though. I did ask for the help from fellow DeviantARTers though. Hopefully that goes well. (LIAM IF YOU ARE READING THIS DO NOT GO AND LOOK AT DEVIANT ART!)

I'm still having trouble feeling real. I refuse to believe it's dissociation. Infact, I know it's not. There is no way in hell I am dissociative. It's impossible.

What is possible, though, is me being extremely moody lately. I mean, more so than usual.

You know what's weird? I just looked at my hands and couldn't tell they were mine. Not until I saw the freckle. Even then, they didn't feel like my hands... they still don't.



CYBER PUNK'D VERISON 2.0


i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
hey
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
Hi
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
wats ur a/s/l?
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
16/F/QLD
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
ok... QLD... good place for summer and skoolies
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
Yes.
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
wats ur asl then?
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
18/m/vic
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
Cool
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
hey wanna cyber?
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
or not, u don't hav 2
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
well ok if u like sticking floppy disks in the hard drive
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
; ) you bet I do.
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
nice well wat r u wearing first?
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
a red top, cut low-ish
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
tight black jeans
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
if it was up 2 me it will b thing but i'l
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
Okay
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
im bak
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
where was i again?... thats write tight jeans
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
right*
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
Yep.
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
Very tight.
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
They kinda show everything off...
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
ur pants r skin tight... how do u get into them?
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
I dunno, do you wanna try?
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
shit ya but i dnt kw who u r or wat u look like
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
Uhh, here's a pic
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. sends:
-
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
nice..... but the clothes look better on my bedroom floor
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
I bet they do.
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
1 way to find out
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
So do I.
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
touch me
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
howz this?
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
feels good with my hand
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
Oh, I love when you run oyur finger acorss my skin
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
slowly moving downward
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
Ohhh.Ohh
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
Are you touching yourself?
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
u wish
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
both hands on u
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
Ahh.
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
Oh yeah baby
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
ur shirt and bra disapears like a fat person wif cake
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
slowly rubbing ice across ur body
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
I slap you because it's cold
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
You like it
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
licking the driping
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
start in sum 4play
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
i pick u up and throw u on the bed
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
I'm breathing deeply
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
My breasts are having
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
while striping ur pants u grab the old fella and start stroking
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
It feels so big
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
So hard and long
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
u take both hands,,,,, eventully all we have on is our birthday suit
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
u r craving it
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
I am... so baaad.
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
Wait.
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
I want you to get on your hands and knees
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
i do wat u say hoping u will get the wip and ghains
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
Oh yes
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
Wait a moment
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
wat?
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
i cant wait
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
I walk over the pter side of the room to get some things
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
Stay were you are.
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
Do what I tell you
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
im horny and thinking kinky
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
ok
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
Oh good.
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
Slowly, I begin to walk back over.
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
my heart is pounding
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
I jump onto the bed
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
I run the whip over your back
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
oh... ah it feels good
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
Then I pull out a ball gag and strap it onto your mouth.
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
come on the hand cuffsa
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
then I slap them onto your ankles and wrists.
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
Then I stand behind you.
i was here but now im gone... i left my name 2 turn u on!!!!!!!! says:
ya
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
And I shove my hard cock into your ass. I pump in and out in and out until I cum, and you scream in pain.
Leviathan 1 days. 6 hours. 15 minutes. says:
I lean over and say "Hey babe, I have AIDS"




I think we should start a whole internet thing for this. It's all so fantastic.

I'm back again. More of a whinge.

Ok. So I still feel shit. No surprises there.

Today I have been yelled at by everyone for no reason. Normally I don't mind if people yell at me, but it's just that EVERYONE yelled at me for things I didn't do. I really hate that.

I am also having troubles being me again. I can't tell if I'm real anymore. Kind of dissociative, but not really that bad. Besides, I don't think I can really have dissociation. Isn't it to do with trauma, like rape and stuff? Oh gosh I sound so stupid.

And again! I feel crappy because there's nothing I am expecially good at. I don't have any special skills. I'm just Louie. Jack's "Jack the music man", Tiff's "Tiff the athlete" Jet's "Jet the reader" HELL! Even Polly is "Polly, the girl with amazing fashion sense" AND SHE'S FUCKING FIVE!! Who am I? "Louie. The weirdo who nobody really likes" Wow, way to make me feel wanted guys! Fuck I just wish there was something I was really good at. I don't even care what it is, I just wish it were something... other than being an amazing freak.

Oh I don't know. You can all kiss my ass.

Emo?

Alright. So I've been feeling pretty crappy recently. I don't actually know why, but I do.

What may have been contributing to this is the fact that I feel like everyone is ignoring me. Of course they're not, but I feel that way... or maybe they are. I know they were once before. That was pretty crappy. The thing is, I don't know what I've said or done to make them feel like ignoring me. That shits me. It's fine to ignore me, as long as I've actually done something. If it seems like I don't know what I've done then you could always try telling me. But that's just an idea.

I've been making my leg worse again. I know I shouldn't, but I honestly can't help it. If it doesn't scar I will be very surprised. Apart from the fact that I scar easily, it is quite deep now.

Yes, well. This blog is more of a whine than anything else today. I must admit, I am ashamed of my blogging performances of late. I used to amuse myself, but now it's all very whiney.

I see Kim on Tuesday. This is good as I have been feeling crap. I don't know how he does it, but somehow he makes me feel better. I don't say much. It's usually just "I don't know." and usually I don't.

It's funny. I seem to know so much about everything but myself.

I know that my family is ignoring me. Either that or they have all gone suddenly deaf. They keep cutting me off, or acting like I haven't said anything. I mean, I know they're busy, but for fuck's sake! They could at least notice me a little.

Thoughtless.

I know. Two posts in one day. I'm back to my old habits. I just had to write is all.

I have a new favourite song. Thoughtless by KoRn. I know it is rather emo to say so, but it is so vey much my life that it is scary. Want lyrics? Ofcourse you don't.

Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies,
Pushing all the mercy down, down, down.
I wanna see you try to take a swing at me.
Come on, I'm gonna put you on the ground, ground, ground.

Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny?
What the fuck you think you're doing to me?
You take your turn lashing out at me.
I want you crying with your dirty ass in front of me.

All...All my hate cannot be found.
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming.
So, you can try to tear me down,
Beat me to the ground,
I will see you screaming.

Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies,
I'm above you smiling at you - drown, drown, drown.
I wanna kill and rape you, the way you raped me.
At all pull the trigger and you're down, down, down.

Why are you trying to take a part of me?
You think it's funny?
What the fuck you think you're doing to me?
You take your turn lashing out at me.
I want you crying when your dirty ass in front of me.

All...All my hate cannot be found.
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming.
So, you can try to tear me down,
Beat me to the ground,
I will see you screaming.

All my friends are gone; they died.
(Gonna take you down!!!)
They all screamed and cried...
(Gonna take you down!!!)

I've got my body, got my body back against the wall
I've got my body, got my body
(Gonna take you down!!!)
I've got my body, got my body back against the wall
I've got my body, got my body
(Gonna take you down!!!)
I've got my body, got my body back against the wall
I've got my body, got my body
(Gonna take you down!!!)
I've got my body, got my body back against the wall
I've got my body, got my body

All...All my hate cannot be found.
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming.
So, you can try to tear me down,
Beat me to the ground,
I will see you screaming.

All..All my hate cannot be found.
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming.
So, you can try to tear me down,
Beat me to the ground,
I will see you screaming.


See? It's very much like how I feel always and forever.



Also. I told Dad about Josh. He ain't happy at all. I'm gonna tell the school and if they don't do anything then Dad says we'll take matters into our own hands. I'm glad.


That's all.
Toodles

Ouch.

Today sucked. There was nothing good to cancel out the bad, therefore some not-exactly-shitty things were made even more shitty.

Josh (who used to go to my old school) was a dick head. Normally I wouldn't care, but it just reminded me of so much shit that I couldn't handle it. I was quite in the mood for a bit of a slapping at that point, but he hid behind his sister. His sister is a big fat emosexual cunt.

In art Brooke decided to beat me up for no reason. I obviously wasn't in the mood for this so I told her to fuck off and shut the fuck up. Of course she didn't. So when I fought back I kicked a cut she has on her leg. It required stiches at the time, but she's just hamming it up now (four months is enough healing time, don't you think?). So she then went fucking nuts at me and beat me up quite badly. Everyone seemed to find it rather funny. I did what I seem to do so often when people bash me up and just sat there and took it. I doubt my arm will get better anytime soon.

This was bad enough, but then Brooke decided that she could be a bitch to me. So I had to put up with more shit. She then went and fucking tried to scratch my eye out. This is bad as I have a new type of contact lense and have to be so very careful with my eyes. It seems alright now.

Jess was also a cunt. She was stealing my stuff (again) and pinching me and shit. It didn't hurt, but after all the crap I had got I was over it. So I am miserable, sore and very pissed off now.

Liam is once again not online. I hope he's okay. Perhaps he hasn't had enough milk... or oranges.

That cut is getting worse. I think it's infected.

I don't really know what else to type. I'm just oging to type because I can, now. It's always nicer to type something up. Maybe I feel better after it because I can vent my feelings a little... Who knows? Obviously not me, and I doubt you do.

I seem to be mildly addicted to Little Birdy. How nice.

I still won't cry. That'll make them too happy. I never cry. Never ever. If I do, I don't tell anyone about it. I hate to cry. It's like saying "Yeah. You broke me down. I'm not strong enough to handle your shit. Lay more on me. Go on. I'm already down Bring me further."

Liam is now here. This is good. I like Liam.


I may go now. I am getting crappy.
Toodles.

Mines.

Today was hot. Very hot.

I went on an excursion to Bendigo today. We went down the Central Deborah Mine. I tell you, despite being down there before, I was still scared shitless.

I was alright in the mine, but getting down there is the scary part. Over 60 metres down in a small rickety cage is a big NO in my books.

I held Rachel's arm on the way down. She didn't let me hold it on the wa back. Her arm turned all red and stuff. I think I hurt her. I know I hurt Lucy on the way back up.

Anyway, down there was alright. Had a crappy group but I got over it.


After that we got food. It was food-y. Nothing special happened.

We then went to the discovery centre. It was pretty much just illusions and challenges and stuff. Your usual Science Works type things.

On the way back to school I died. I didn't have any water and the bus wasn't air conditioned. I spent most of the time in a semi-coma singing to my MP3.

On the way home I was harrased by Cailan, Russel and Cassidy fucking touching and kissing my neck the whole time. It was alright when Cailan and Cassidy got off.

Anyway. I'm on the bus until the end of the line along with about 8 other kids so the bus driver bought us all icey-poles. We all love Rick.

Yeah... The cut on my leg is pretty bad. I can't wear shorts or short-ish skirts now. That sort of sucks considering how fucking hot it is nowadays.
Yet I still insist on making it worse.

Also, Liam has not been online today. This makes me sad as I like Liam and enjoy talking to him.


Ah well, I should be off. Toodles Minions!

Guess who's back.

Well it's been a while!

Not much has really happened. More self harm (because I'm so hardXxXxXxXxXxXxXcor emo). I actually cut... kind of. I carved my name into my leg. It just seems like I can't feel anything at the moment, so I did it to know that I was real. I am Louie and I am real.

I am wondering if Elly is really worth it. We're more friends then anything else... on my side anyway. I can't figure out if she likes me or not. Ah well, there's only one way to find out.

Harrison is being Harrison. We're kind of fuck buddies now, I guess. I can handle that =P

Mitch is just Mitch. We are officially friends. I'm gonna see if he wants to go to the Must concert with me or something.

Liam is pretty awesome. I only met him a while ago, but I've decided that he is almost as awesome as Matt. If I'm lucky (and rich) I'll see him at Big Day Out. Of course, if I don't I'll find some other way to meet him. ithink we have a fair bit in common... certainly enough for us to be friends, so that's cool. =D

Vitta is pissing me off with this JayJay Kane thing. I'm sick of hearing how happy she is that she saw JayJay's cock or how crap she feels because Kane's a child molester.

Matt's pretty Matt-ish.

School is pretty cool. Everyone seems to love me... or at least not hate me as much.

my hair is longer and I am more self confident again.

I found my rainbow arm band, so I am happy =P

I am getting better at arting. I quite like it. Sometimes it's easier then writing.

I've started the Get Louie To Big Day Out Foundation. $4.10 out of $126


Yeah,well, that's about all that's happened recently. I'll try and update more.

Kepp rocking,
Louie.

Turn for the best?

Well, it seems that things aren't so bad anymore.

Ash is talking to me again. Not as much as before, but talking all the same. WE figured out that Monique was just being a bitchy slut. So that's good.

Elly is well and I may ask her out right now. I shall.
As we speak I wait for a reply.
How did I ask her out, you might ask.
Like so: "Let's go out. =P"
"YOu how I think you mean?
ah now I can't speak."
"you're right. Yout can't.
What the hell does "you how I think you mean" mean?!"
"I'll try again. Do you mean what I think you mean?"
"That all depends on what you think I mean. =P"


I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND WOOT FOR ME YAY!! =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Look, I made a freak with many many mouths.


Anyway. Ben was at school today. He saved me from Maddi so I am very happy with him. =D

It seems as though all is well.


Also: Sorry Vitta. I was being silly. Freinds?


Much love

Happy fucking Halloween.

God. Today was rather crap.

Makala is still trying to be me.

Ash and Emily hate me because of shit that Monique has been saying.

It was too hot.

I feel like a loner again.



Jack says Emily is "Sick of me trying to be lesbian with her" WHICH IS FUCKING BULLSHIT!! I CAN HAVE FRIENDS, YOU KNOW! I DON'T HAVE TO LOVE EVERYONE I FUCKING SEE!! Besides, Emily isn't even pretty or anything, and she can be rather annoying. AND DAMNIT SHE'S HIGH MAINTAINANCE!!
Losing Emily, I can handle, but the fact that she went and turned ASh against me too is just low. I came this fucking far and thought everything would be fucking ok and there Monique goes and fucks it all up for me. I hope I gave her a guilt trip. She was trying to gossip with me and I said "Look, I don't care about the rumours I just wish whoever said it would own up or something." "Why?" "Because I've come this far and I finally thought that I had real friends who gave a crap and someone's gone and fucked it up for me." Or something like that. I hope she dies. I hate Monique.

A rather nice part of today was hanging out with Harrison again. I felt him up (naturally) and DAMNIT the boy has got abs!! I swear it, if I were him I'd be walking around with my top off every day!!

Also Mitch has been rather cool. He has tickets to the muse concert. I am ever so jealous.





Everyone went out trick or treating tonight. It seems everyone has friends except me. How joyous.




Much love
Louie

Oh what a day...

Today has been one hell of a day.

First I get on the bus and Elly is not there. Quite a dissapointment considering that she asked me out the other day.

I get to school and Bec is a bitch (as always). I hang out with Mandy because she's cool and is one of the few people who actually like me.

Class starts and I am forced to sit next to Makala andin front of Lucy. They have been pissing me off quite a lot. Mainly Makala because 1) she tries to be me and 2) she's a real fat bitch. Lucy just sort of tags along with her.

SOSE and English were both pretty normal. I rule and got all my work done.

At recess Ash and Emily ditch me. Ash says that Emily doesn't want to be seen with me anymore because of the stupid rumour that EMILY'S SISTER made up about us pashing. So apparently I have a huge lesbian crush on her. Apparently everyone feels the same and doesn't want to be around me incase I fall in love with them. God I hate them. Anyway, I ended up hanging out with Reid in the canteen for a while.

I got pretty annoyed in the next two preiods because everyone was just being cunts. Possibly because I already felt like crap, but who knows.

Lunch time was the worst. I just sort of wondered around aimlessly trying to find Harrison or someone to hang with. I ended up going to the big concrete chair (AKA the reject spot) and hanging out with people who I didn't even know there. They were alright, but a bit too "Manly" for me. Cars this and cars that.

Fifth period was alright. I talked to Russel and Chesh the whole period. We have to do some sort of group project together. They're pretty funny, those two. Both said I'm "cool" and that I have my own style and they "respect that". Sixth period was such a bludge that I barely remember it.

Oh yes. Mitch is also pretty cool. He's that year seven who said my dancing is hot. WE're fat buddies! =D

I've decided that I shall go out with Elly if she asks. It's worth a shot, after all.

Home is sucky. Mum's drunk (as usual) and pissing me off to no end. She knows not of reason!

Webcam.

I am in love with webcams. They are awesome.

I found out that Tiff's crappy camera doubles as a webcam so I've been whoring it out much much many many.

I know that Vitta will probably read this so I'm not going to try and be subtle. It pisses me off a bit when she'd rather speak to JayJay or Lor then me. I mean, it doesn't bother me that she speaks to them. It's just that, when she speaks to them, she practically ignores me. I could just be making it all up in my head, but it still gets to me. Perhaps it's just because I was so happy and I needed to come down so I'm exhagerating. I don't know and I don't care. I'm now pissed off with everyone.


On a brighter note. I found a new awesome band. Sophe Lux. Go listen, they're awesome.

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"So then I was making out with this girl in the shower and she said 'I have a boyfriend' so I was like "Fuck you whore! I'm never making out with you again" but then she fingered me so it's all ok" -- Louie when she is bored and in he canteen line at school.

So I haven't blogged in a few days. Is it my fault that I am far too cool to blog? No. It is not my fault. You know who's fault it is? Yours. Yes, yours. You boosted my confidence and now I am out making friends while you're all alone reading my blog. Silly, silly readers.

I have a scandal! Aren't I cool? Do you want to hear about my scandal? Well too bad. I'll tell you anyway!

There is a boy called Harrison. We have been casually flirting for quite sometime now. Today we "hooked up" during a game of suck and blow. (Yes. we are whores and yes, we are easily bored). ANYWAY! Things are looking up on that side.
The scandal? He's Emly's ex and she still has a thing for him. I think it's ridiculous because she dumped him for another guy.

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Yeah, well. I forgot to post this yesterday so I shall blog today's blog on the same one.

So today I decided EMily is a bitchy whore. I got Harrison, she doesn't. Sucks to her.

Also! Elly apparently likes me as more then a friend. Sounds like fun.

Harrison still has that Bryony chick or whatever so I may just hook up with Elly a few times because I'm a whore.


Danced in the rain. 'Twas fun.




That is all. Much love.

Youth Fest means FUCK YES

Well I have had a fucking awesome two days.

Friday:

Went to school, was rather happy.
Saw Reid last period. The others (AKA Vicky, Mandy and Beth) were talking to him. I went and said hi. Then we got onto relationships (naturally) and I asked him what his longest relationship was. To which he replied "Two years" which is odd for someone who is 13/14. Anyway. I, being so witty, said "So why has it only been two days after that?" to which he was silent. We then parted.
Ash stayed at my place that night. We watched The Grudge and she was shitting herself the whole time. Everytime the "suspenseful music" (captions for the hearing impaired - remote = funny) played she would say "hand!" and I would have to hold her hand. Yes indeed. She practically pissed herself.
We also watched The Wedding Singer and Scared Weird Little Guys.

Saturday: Oh joyous Saturday!

We got up around nine and realised that we were rather late. So what does mum do? Make both Ash and I do the dishes. How kind. We then got ready and went to pick up Emily.
Naturally we got lost. We were found again when I called Emily and said "EMILY WHERE THE HELL DO YOU LIVE?" so yes. That was good.

After we picked up Emily we went to Safeways in Kyneton. Mum ditched us there.
Anyway! We went and bought many many lollies and a packet of Pringles. Ash got a red bull and Emily and I got that black V stuff. Emily didn't like hers so I got two!! It's great because the limit is two a day and I had two in ten minutes! I had also had 100grams straight guarrana (spelling) and it was just starting to kick in. ANYWAY! We called Emily's mum to get a camera and we ended up getting stuck with Monique (Emily's step-sister of the same age). Monique is a bitch. A bitchy bitch, even. So we were just cunts to her all day.
So anyway. We waited outside the showgrounds for Emily's mum. When she FINALLY came, we went and bought our tickets. It was only after then that we realised there were no pass outs. So we got tinsy winsy buckets of chips for three dollars each... and another can of coke for me =D

We then went to the Way Out stall and got free tattoos and TONNES of stickers. That's where we met Bubbles. He real name is Petri but we called her Bubbles because she was dancing around blowing bubbles at everyone!

The bands at the sart sucked major cock so we went down to watch the skate comp. I knew everyone who entered in the boys under 16's so w00t for me! Chesh was awesome and Russel did well considering he'd only started riding two weeks ago. I think Mitch won, though.
Anyway, they only had two girls entered in the girl's comp so the announcer came up and asked us if we'd do it. Naturally we all told Ash to, because she owns a board and we do not. So with much encouragement we got her to sign up... on the condition that I do too. As I was filling out the forms I saw "Emegency Number" and "... we will not be held responsible for any injuries..." so I said "WHAT THE HELL IS THIS I CAN'T DO IT NOW" but it was too late... and I thought it would be fun.
So I had a crash course in riding from Chesh. He's actually quite nice and he let me use his board. Luckily for me we could stay on the flat, so I didn't need to do much more then stay on the board. It soon became apparent that I would not be able to do this.
As soon as the comp started I fell on my arse. I hadn't even moved yet and I was on my ass. It was funny because it didn't hurt.
Anyway, after falling down a lot and crashing a few times I came fourth in a five person comp. w00t for me!! Of course, the only reason I beat Ash was because she pulled out half way through. Still, w00t!!

Anyway. After all that we went back up to the bands to see No Idea. They were alright for a hardcore punk band. I got a free single so they became more awesome =D
After that it was time for SOUNDS LIKE CHICKEN!! They were so fucking awesome. By the time they were on everyone had ditched me to get their faces painted, so I was up the front all by myself. It was great because there were, like, five people moshing because of me. ANYWAY! Sounds Like Chicken were great! They're a local ska band and I love them so much. After their set I snuck baxkstage to speak to them. I am now friends with all seven members of Sounds Like Chicken.
After I had made friends I went to see The Go Set. They were also amazingly awesome. Cool local punk rock band. They tried to get people to mosh, but it didn't really work, so I went around to heaps of randoms sitting down and got them to stand up and jump around. It's amazing how many people will go to a concert and not know how to jump in time. So anyway, I got a few more people going for that one. About ten people (w00 great). Anyway, the guy on bagpipes came down and skanked with us for a while and the singer came down and got us to sing some of it. For their last song they fought with security to get me, Liam, Lisa and two other chicks on stage to skank/mosh/sing. It was so awesome being up there.

After that I realised that I was extrememly dehydrated. So much so, that I almost fainted. So I went to the ambo's and asked for water. I felt better after a few glasses. Not fantastic, but better.

After all that we got cold so we went to the tent at the skate park and hung out around there for a while as no one was there. Then Mitch and some other guys came along. Apparently my odd skanking/moshing thing is really hot. When Mitch said it he wasn't being sarcastic and he wasn't around people, so I assume he was being honest. It is odd, because he is "too cool" for me. Ah well.

Oh yes. I am also the master of the mechanical surfboard. I can do it on one foot on the fastes setting. I'm so cool!

OH YEAH! There were also some bitch whores there, but we took care of them. =D

Yeah. So that's about it. I had fun and now I feel bad but awesome. My ears are still ringing, my shoulders hurt. My neck hurts. My head hurts. My arms hurt. It's awesome.

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EDIT: I have just realised that my shoulders are sunburned.

Burn

Burn is an awesome song. It's by The Cure. It's about a bagillion minutes long, but it is so damn awesome.

Anyway, today was alright I guess. I just felt kind of numb through out the whole thing. That made it crappy. Very crappy indeed.

Funny things that DID happen today:

Elly bought a manequin head on the bus. Russel used it as his head by putting his jumper up high, putting hte head on his head and sticking his hood over the fake head so you couldn't see his head. It was funny when you were there.

I signed many a t-shirt for the year twelves. Ben's says "Hey baby, call me. Much love Louie" Ian's: "You're a sexy beast. Much love, Louie" and "I love you. Marry me. Much love, Louie" Rory's just says "Louie" because he's gay and Cherree's says "Yo mamma couldn't fit in the can bro! Much love, Louie"
Oh yeah. Jon's says "Sex me, please. Much love, Louie (AKA: Creepy chick on your bus)"

I also was a whore becuase I can be. Dude with the cool hair is called Micheal. He's hot. Yeah, I'm a hippycrite.

Yeah, well. Tht's all the cool stuff.

Reid was on roll thingy today so I saw him a fir bit in class. That wasn't cool.

Hmmm... yes...

Burned five times today... well five times badly (keeping you informed, not seeking attention). The worst would be on my thumb. 'Tis a large pain. Kind of handy though.

Anyway, yes. Tiff asked why I have many a band-aid on my hand. Lucky for me she's ten and believes that I have a small cut and need all the other band-aids to keep the first one on because the band-aids are crap.

I guess that's about all for now. Peace out.

Blug? Blig? Blag? Bleg?

Hello Vitta and/or Matt!

Today was a rather good day, to be honest. I didn't see much of Reid and that's alright by me. Except for the fact that I think he is smoking again and that is not cool. Not cool at all.
I spent some of lunch hanging around Brodie (emo kid) and other cunts. No idea why, but it was fun shooting insults off eachother.
Jack also broke his callar bone today. Everyone is making a rather big deal about it, but I don't really care. One of the "big issues" about this is that he can't play guitar for many months now. All I have to say to this is THANK FUCKING GOD!! He never fucking stops and, although he is good, he is fucking annoying!!

Anyway. I had art the last two periods today, which means I ended on a good note. I doodled a bit, but didn't really finish anything. We're designing T-shirts, you see, and all my designs are far too complicated for the style of printing we are doing. So I is having some trouble. I think I may just go for me Eat You skull. He's simple and my awesome trademark.

I have to say. People around me are changing. I have noticed a few friends turning a little bit slutty on me. I know that it is hypocritical of me to be pissed ff by the change and sluttyness of these people, but I am so NYAH!

Talking about sluts. It reminded me of Sam. God she pisses me off. We were once friends, kind of, but then I got pissed off at her for constantly flirting with Zac, so now she hates me. Anyway! Today I was walking past hr and she goes "Hey Louie! Why are you such a bitch but your brother's so nice?" to which I replied "Hey Sam! Why are you such a skank but your brother is so awesome?" (This makes sense as she is awfully jealous of her brother's popularity. He is awesome). Anyway, she's a cunt and I hate her. There are far too many skanks at my school, I have decided. Although, there is not much I can do about that.

Oh yes!! Maddi is being fucking annoying. Yes she is a friend, but DAMNIT STOP TRYING TO FLIRT WITH ME! I understand that she likes me, and I understand that she is quite hurt that I won't date her BUT THERE IS A REASON! Wanna know what it is? Well, don't tell anyone, but she's extremely annoying and she has saggy boobs. OH YES SAGGY BOOBS!!

Talking of saggy boobs, I don't think Claire owns a bra. I mean, seriously. Her tits hang so low that they could be nuts for all I know. It pisses me off. It's not that hard to get a bra that supports you at least a little!

I believe that is all. Much love!

My day in a script.

Mum: (walks into Louie's room) Louie!! Get up you'll be late!!
Louie: (groans) What time is it?
Mum: Quarter to seven. (walks out of room)
Louie: (Sits up and bangs her head on the roof) Ouch! (mumbling) Stupid fucking roof has to be so fucking low. Stupid bed too high. (grumbles and gets out of bed)
Louie stumbles to the bathroom blindly, having forgotten to leave her glasses in her room again. She turns on the shower and loks in the mirror.
Louie: (Sighs and say to Bade) This is stupid, You know.
Bade: What is?
Louie: Mornings. (Gets into shower)
Louie goes through her shower routine talking occasionally to BAde about how she hates mornings, being careful not to think too much about Reid. She gets out of the shower, dries herself and startsto blow-dry her hair.
Louie: (to Bade) God this is stupid. I hate to blow-dry my hair.
Bade: So don't shower in the morning?
Louie: Don't be a smart-arse. Now what was it that magazine in the dentist say about blow-drying your hair?
Bade: Don't blow-dry from the bottom or you'll get frizzy hair.
Louie: Awesome (tips head over and blow-dries the bottom)
Some time later.
Louie: BADE YOU BASTARD I HAVE A FUCKING AFRO NOW!
Bade: I told you not to blow-dry the bottom.
Louie: I THOUGHT YOU WERE BEING SARCASTIC!!
Louie walks out of the bathroom to find kids running around, screaming everywhere.
Louie: Yo mum! What time is it?
Mum: Time for you to go! You'll be late!
Louie: What? I only just got ready.
Mum: (pushes Louie out the dorr) Go go go!
Louie: WAIT! I need two bucks for tic tacs.
Mum: (rumages through her purse and hands Louie two one dollar coins) Here! Now go!!
Louie: Ok, Ok! I'll see you later.
Mum: (walks inside) JACK STOP DOING THAT!
Louie starts to walk to school.
Louie: You know, Bade, I think far too much.
Bade: You're telling me! I live in your fucking head and it is NUTS! I mean, do you ever STOP woman!?
Louie: I think we're late.
Bade: But you still have time for tic tacs?
Louie: Naturally.
Louie pays the lady at the counter and walks to the bus stop.
Russel: Where's Jack?
Louie: He's sick, again.
Russel: Knife-y knife-y?
Louie: No. He's sick.
The bus arrives and Louie gets on. She purposely avoids "Jake's seat" so as not to upset the silly midget.
Time passs and Louie stays silent.
The bus arrives at Woodend. Louie turns off her MP3 player and looks for Elly.
Elly: (sits down beside Louie) Hey.
Louie: Hey. God I'm tired.
Elly: Yeah, same. Got a bit pissed last night.
Louie: You get pissed everynight, slut.
Elly: (laughs) Yeah, well. I'm an alcoholic christian, what do you expect?

ALRIGHT! I am skipping to recess now, because the day was dragging along at this point and all I did was sleep for the first few periods.

Ash: Hey Louie.
Louie: Hey cunt. What up?
Ash: Nothing much.
Emily: HEY GUYS!!
Louie: Hi slut piss off!
Emily: (laughs) I'm so stupid, I gave Harrison a letter telling him that I love him.
Louie: That's becuase you're a whore. Where's Reid?
Emily: He's up at the seat.
Ash: Come on, she'll wanna go.
Louie: w00t!
Ash, Emily and Louie all walk up to the big huge concrete seat. Louie quickly regrets her descision to see Reid.
Ash: Hey everyone!
Emily: (sits down) Hi guys.
Louie: HUGGLES!! (runs around hugging everyone)
Maddi: (looks up, sees Louie. Mopes)
Lisa: Hey Louie!
Louie: NOINK! (steals one of Lisa's crackers)
Lisa: (laughs) What's up?
Louie: Same old.
Lisa: Are you ok?
Louie: Sure. See? Happy face! (smiles widely)
Lisa: You look really depressed.
Louie: Really?
Lisa: Yes.
Louie: Oh. I don't mean to.
Reid: Owwwwww (lays down)
Lisa: What happened?
Reid: Someone threw the ball at my nuts.
Everyone: (laughs)
Rid: It's not funny! It hurts!
Louie: It's karma.
Reid: For what?
Louie: Larma comes back threefold, so you must have done something bad.
Everyone: (talks a lot)
Louie ignores people and goes back to thinking.
Louie: (to Bade in her head) Isn't it funny how wind can blow down entire trees, but it can't pull up one blade of grass?
Bade: That's because of the size and weight of a tree. You know, science stuff.
Louie: It's still strange. I mean, the only time I can think of wind pulling grass up is in a otrnado and even then I'm not sure if it's ever happened...
Bade: Of course it has.
The bell goes and Louie stumbles off to class. She sleeps through both periods.

LUNCH TIME

Louie: OH MY GOSH MAKALA THE SINGING AUDITIONS!!
Makala: OH MY FUCKING GOD SHIT WHERE ARE THEY!?
Louie: Be fucked if I know! Ash, do you know where the singing auditions are?
Ash: HAHAHA!!
Louie: You're right.
Makala: Beth! Singing auditions?
Beth: Music room.
Louie: LET'S GO!!
Everyone runs to the music room.
Louie: (reads sign on door of music room) SALLY IS SICK THEY ARE CANCELLED!!
Makala: YAY!
Beth: Awww
Vicky: YAY!!
Louie: I'm gonne dump my bag over at the chair (walks off)
Louie sees Reid talking to Claire and suddenly feels crappy.
Ash: Hey Louie. What about the singing auditions?
Louie: They're cancelled.
Reid: Hey.
Louie: Hey.
People talk for a while. louie doesn't pay much attention.
Louie: I'm gonna lie down over there.
Ash: Ok.
Emily: Alright. I'll come.
Reid: What's wrong with you?
Louie: Nothing.
Reid: I know that something's wrong. Don't lie.
Louie: It's nothing.
Reid: Com on.
Louie: Really. It's nothing.
Mandy: Just tell him what's wrong already!
Louie: No. It's stupid.
Reid: Is it me?
Louie: It's many things.
Reid: I know enough to know what's wrong.
Louie: So stop asking.
Everyone seems to decide it's time to get up. Louie stays on the ground.
Louie: This is ridiculous, Bade. WHy the fuck do I even care?
Bade: Because you trusted him.
Louie: I've trusted people before.
Bade: And it all ended the same.
Louie: ... yeah.
Bade: So what have we learned?
Louie: Trusting people is stupid and should not be done.
Reid: (sits next to Louie) You know, Maddi really wants to go out with you.
Louie: Yeah, I know.
Reid: So why don't you?
Louie: Because I don't fancy her. She's a friend.
Reid: Fair enough. (Goes to tell Maddi)
Louie stares across the grass as time passes.
Maddi: (sits next to Louie) Hi
Louie: Hey
Maddi: I... um... I don't know how to do this.
Louie: Just do it.
Maddi: Do you know what this is about?
Louie: I have an idea.
Maddi: What do you think it is?
Louie: I wont say, because if I get it wrong I'll look like a douche.
Maddi: No you wont.
Louie: Yeah I will. So what is it?
Maddi: Well... uhmm... I don't know how to do this... will you go out with me?
Louie: Oh. Uhmm... I'm sorry, but I don't think I can at the moment.
Maddi: Reid?
Louie: Yeah. I'm sorry.
Maddi: It's ok.
Louie: No it's not. I'm sorry.
Maddi says a few more things before getting up to go.
Louie lies down and fights off her tears because she's oh so emo.


Right I'm sick of this. Basically what happened after that was I talked to Reid and he informed me that he is moving so he doesn't wnat to get into anthing to "serious" becuase he'll just have to leave. He said that he did that once and it tore both of them apart. I told him that I don't care and I'll see him everyday if I have to, he said something, but I don't remember what now. Anyway, the bell went so I went to class. As I am no good at talking about feelings I used science to write down everything. At the time I had no intention of giving it to him. But, of course, I am stupid. So after school just before he left I gave it to him and said "I don't do the talking thing." I then ran to my buss. So I have yet to find out what he has to say about said note.

So yes. It certainly helped make me feel better. That is until I realised that I'm being stupid and no note is ever going to make him change his mind.


On another note. I had a shower today (*SHOCK HORROR*). The twist? Only hot water. It was fantastic. All over burn, baby =P
It's funny. Burning is begginning to be more of a habit now. I'm so hardcore. Anyway, yes. I need new band aids.

Blog, yo.

Hey there my one faithful reader (yes, that meas you Vitta. TWO FUCKING T'S).

Today was so much better then yesterday. I went to school (lyk no waiz), and talked to Reid. Eventually. Wanna know how it went down? Of course you don't, but you shall anyway.

At the start of school I tried to establish wether or not he was at school today, lucky for me he was.
At recess I decide to go looking for him. I end up finding him with the smoking assholes (this includes Josh) so I decide to wait for him somewhere else. When he eventually does come around he seemed rather angry with me or something. He wouldn't say much so I gave up pretty quickly. Although, this was still an improvement on nothing.
AND THEN IT'S LUNCH! I decided not to go and look for him. Instead I sat on the grass in clear view of him (nothing suss). I just chatted with sh, Emily and Gemma while keeping an eye on him. After a while he got up and walked off. I was a smart girl and waited a while before I went to the only place he could have gone, the big concrete chair. =D He was there.
Of course, I am so manly that I can't talk about my feelings to anyone other then Matt and Bade, really. So I just sort of moped. We talked, of course, but I guess it just wasn't the same. ANYWAY! I ended up lying on the grass (I do so when I need to think) and he came and talked to me. Unfortunately Maddi was there (she has an uber lesbian crush on me), so we didn't say much. We did end up getting some time alone, however. ou rtalk went something like this...

Reid: What's wrong
Louie: (lying obviously) Nothing
Reid: Is it me?
Louie: ...No
Reid: Yes it is.
Louie: Maybe.
Reid: You've been wanting to say something all day.
Louie: Have not.
Reid: Yes you have. Waiting for me back there?
Louie: I was not waiting fo you.
Reid: Yes you were. So just say it.
Louie: No. It's stupid.
Reid: I bet it's not.
Louie: it is.
Reid: Just say it already.
Louie: Well... ok... Just... why?
Reid: It's not stupid to ask why.
Louie: Sure it is... so why?
Reid: I dunno... I guess I just gave into everybody.
Reid: It's been killing me.
Louie: Oh...
Reid: I'm sorry. It was stupid. I... I'm sorry.
Louie: It's ok.
Reid: I'm sorry.
Louie: Really, it's ok.
Reid: So what do you wanna do now?
Louie: I dunno. What do you wanna do?
Reid: This isn't about what I wanna do. It's about what you wanna do.
Louie: Well... I still really like you... andwann be with you... and stuff.
Reid: I wanna be with you too.
Louie: (glows)

So yes. As you can see my relationship status is still somewhat hazy. Although it is looking up. So I am happy.

On another note: I have made a horrible habit of burning again. I don't usually write or talk abut this anywhere other then to Bade and in my most special notebook. Feel special, people. Anyway, I stopped for a while when my lighter ran out, but I have recently discovered that there ae matches ALL over the house. Aren't I a lucky girl? So yes. I am now burning my fingers every chance I get. It's funny, because even when I had my lighter I didn't do it this often. Oh well. I'll "grow out of it".

Third blog.

Oh yes. My third blog for the day.
You know why I am blogging for the third time?
Because I am emo.
Not really, but it explains a lot.
And this blog is going to be horribly pathetic.

I am extremely envious of Vitta (she knows that it's her so why bother pretending it's not?). I don't think she actually notices how lucky she is to have not one but TWO guys vying for her attention. Not only that, they are both older then her and at least one is extremely fucking hot. I know she's really happy and I am happy that she's happy but it doesn't make me feel any better. I know it's supid for me to envy her, but I do so it's shit. Perhaps it's just because of Reid and the whole fact that I have trouble getting one guy's attention, let alone two. I get like this far too often. It's just that EVERYONE seems to have the luck. It's like I'm the ugly girl that hangs out with all the popular chicks. Did you ever realise that there's always an ugly one? Anyway. It may just be my low self esteem, or the crushing depression, or the recent break up, or the revelation that I am not immune to love, but I am very very VERY envious and I don't like it.

I think I should end this one big whiney rant here. Before I get too caught up in it all.

Yes. I sit down in the shower.

Isn't it funny how a blog that was neglcted for so long suddenly has two posts in one day?
This blog is almost getting more attention then my other ones used to. Possibly because I know that barely anyone will read this one. I may or may not link Matt and Vitta to this one. Who knows?

Anyway, the reason why I am blogging now is to talk about showers. I like showers for many reasons. One of them being they are a fantastic place to think. It's very private, in a shower. Just you and the moth that always seems to be there. I always have very hot showers.
I love to think in showers. It's fantastic. There's no need to do anything. You can just stand (or sit) there for hours without having anyone to tell you what to do or how to do it. It's a few moments ofpeace in our short lives.
Showers also make me feel better. I always shower when I'm upset. I can just sit there and think things through. That way I can see if I am just being ridiculous or not.
Gosh. I've mentioned that I think in the shower so often in this blog. People are going to think I am insane.

Ok. I am ending this here because Vitta wants a link. I shall blog more later.

Hello again.

Well, I started all over again. I figured my last blog was too boring and didn't have enough posts anyway.

I think I shall blog about my day, as that seems to be the general reason for these blogs.

Today I slept. I slept until 12PM, because that's what I do best. I then went down the street to get lunch. I have now been on the computer for a good three hours. The end.